The Vulgar Life Of A Vanquished: Princess [cracked]

“I’ve gotten full,” she replied.

She grew thin. Her hair, once washed in rosewater, was shorn for lice. Her hands, once trained for the harp, became calloused and cracked, the nails broken and black. She ate what the soldiers ate—gray stew with gristle, bread that had to be dipped in water to be chewed. She slept on a pile of rags behind the cookhouse, waking each morning to the sound of a rooster and the smell of her own sweat. the vulgar life of a vanquished princess

She ate it. And for the first time in months, she was not hungry. “I’ve gotten full,” she replied

She remembered the palace with a kind of abstract nausea: the endless etiquette, the corsets that left bruises, the marriage negotiations conducted over her head like she was a breeding mare. She remembered her mother’s frozen smile, her father’s cold hand on her shoulder. She remembered the loneliness of silk sheets and the terror of being seen but never heard. Here, in the vulgar world, no one cared if she spoke. No one cared if she laughed—though she had forgotten how. Here, she was simply a body that moved, that lifted, that scrubbed, that survived. Her hands, once trained for the harp, became

Her first night in the conqueror’s city was spent in a cell that drained into an open gutter. The conqueror himself did not come to gloat. That pleasure he reserved for her father’s head, pickled in a jar on his banquet table. Instead, she was given to the quartermaster, a man who smelled of boiled leather and old spite. He handed her a pail and a brush. “You will learn to scrub,” he said, “or you will learn to starve.”